just a slice of my life
Jun 15, 2011 @ 12:08 AM
When people are pushed to the edge, they let their instinct rules.
Their mind just go blank and do stupidly crazy things, they will only come to their senses after they have done it. I'm no exception; sometime I'll just blank out, doing things without thinking and only start to regret it later. Most of the time I was drawing, not something nice because I was just wasting paint and paper. I'll randomly scribble things, lines, circles and dripping paint filling the paper with colours. I'll only stop when I start to feel tired and I'll fall asleep on the wet paint. That explains why I was often covered with paint on my forehead, arms and legs, the bad thing is I may even go to school with the paint on without realizing it.
Drawings can reflect the deepest emotion of the artist, anyone can draw, it doesn't have to be good. This is the reason why the psychologists have been using it to decipher the human mind. I'm not going to post the ugly drawings up,they are crap and it will show my twisty twisted personality.
I have friend who keep sending messages to check if I'm well, I really appreciate his concern, but I don't know what give him the idea that I'm emotionally unstable. Hello people I'm fine and I'm contented, I am happy and I'm doing well. I wouldn't commit suicide, I love this world and I have yet to enjoy it; I just can't get enough of this world, so please don't treat me like a mental patient. I complaint a lot (typical Singaporean), that doesn't mean I'm suffering.